i woke up again and thought
this is still my life<\/p>\n\n\n\n
the bottles on the nightstand the ones with my name
printed small and official
they\u2019re the only thing that remembers me anymore<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i used to think when someone said i love you
it meant something like stay
but now i think it just means
i\u2019m scared to be alone right now<\/p>\n\n\n\n
god i\u2019m sorry but i don\u2019t believe in you<\/p>\n\n\n\n
my hands used to make things
now they just lie here
i don\u2019t even want to anymore
that\u2019s how i know something is really wrong<\/p>\n\n\n\n
every day i\u2019m learning how easy it is
to take up less space
just stop calling people back
stop washing your hair
stop acting like any of this matters<\/p>\n\n\n\n
the truth is the trees would be fine without me
better even
one less person using up the air<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i think i\u2019m becoming see through
like those jellyfish we saw that summer
the ones that were barely there<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and i\u2019m not fighting it
i\u2019m just letting myself drift
toward whatever comes after wanting
after trying
after the long exhausting work
of being a person<\/p>\n\n\n\n
the pills know
the silence knows
my body has always known
where this was going<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014lyra moon (barely there \/ drifting out)
february 2, 2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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